"How are you supposed to pack everything and move three hours away when you can't even keep your kitchen clean?" (I'll be making a post about it later on, but I've accepted a ministry job offer, and I am so excited to start it, it's just that I'll be moving three hours away)
I started to feel discouraged. It was right after all. I can't keep my kitchen clean. I try, and then I get overwhelmed, or distracted, or I'm at work, and it's difficult to clean a kitchen that is 30 minutes away from you. In fact, I struggle with keeping my entire house clean. Especially with a pandemic that makes it so that I don't have to clean for company to come over (company is a huge incentive to clean house for me).
Then...I remembered something.
"For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength." — Philippians 4:13 NLTIf you've seen War Room, you probably remember the scene where the woman went through her entire house, denouncing the devil, telling him that he had no place in her home, or in her life. You can watch that scene here.
I went on a rampage. I yelled at Satan and told him that if God has placed it on my heart to move three hours away, where I only have two friends, and to do a difficult job, then God will also give me the strength to do what he's asked me to do.
I told him that he is a liar and the father of lies.
"When he lies, it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies." — John 8:44b NLTI told him that the abyss, hell, the lake of fire, was made for him and his angels. Not for me, not for anyone in the town I'm living in, and not for anyone in the town I'm moving to. That God has asked me to be his hands and feet and spread the good news, and that he can't stop me, and that there are people he will not be allowed to have, because I am determined to share God with them.
"Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels:" — Matthew 25:41 KJVI informed him that I can do everything through Christ. And everything means everything. I can do something little, like getting my kitchen cleaned, something bigger like packing up and moving three hours away where I only have two friends, and, if it ever comes down to it, something huge, like allowing someone to kill me rather than renouncing the name of Jesus.
Everything means everything.
I also told Satan that he doesn't belong in my house, and he definitely doesn't belong whispering things in my mind. I told him that I know he hates having scripture quoted at him, but that maybe he should have just not tried whispering lies into my mind. I told him that I know how weak I am, and how scared and nervous I am of moving away from my friends, my family, and my church family. And that it's okay, because God's strength is perfect in my weakness.
"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." — II Corinthians 12:9 ESVI screamed at him. I yelled at him. I told him that he didn't belong here. Because he doesn't. He doesn't belong in my house, whispering things into my mind trying to make me doubt not only myself, but God. God told me to fill out the job application, God gave me the job, and God is moving me and will provide a place to live when I get there. God promises to take care of me. He knows my needs before I ask!
"Don’t be like them, for your Father knows exactly what you need even before you ask him!" — Matthew 6:8 NLT
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus." — Philippians 4:19 NLTGuys! If God calls you to do something, if he brings you to a ministry, to a crossroads, and it's something that he wants you to do, you can do it. Christ is giving you strength! Do you remember what his strength accomplished? He raised the dead to life. He healed the blind and the lame, he cleansed people of leprosy, multiplied five loaves and two fish to the point that not only was everyone fed, but there were several baskets left over!!! AND HE IS GIVING YOU STRENGTH!!! Is that not incredible?!
You can do everything through Christ who gives you strength! Everything! From the small, to the large, and everything in between! There are verses about how our faith can move mountains! I've been to Colorado only twice, but I would like to tell you that the mountains are a wee bit big.
I do have to throw a wrench in this and say that if it's not God's will, no amount of wishing will make it so. The II Corinthians verse earlier in this post was after Paul had repeatedly asked God to please remove this thorn in the flesh. He had faith. But God told him that he worked best through Paul's weakness, and that no, he would not remove his thorn.
But that's a whole different topic, for a whole different post.
Guys, I'm over here scared to move a measly three hours away, doubting my capabilities because of a messy kitchen. But I can do it. It's what God's asked me to do, and he isn't going to bring me to this crossroads, then leave me high and dry. I can do everything, through Christ who gives me strength, because his spirit lives in me.
"The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. " — Romans 8:11a NLT